thoughts and things

Everyone that knows me pretty well, knows how much I hate change.I'm a pretty routine person and I like that.well there is a lot of changes happening at work right now and its stressing me out pretty bad.I'm trying to be OK with it and just deal with it but its very hard for me.I guess I'm going to have to put on my big girl panties and deal with it, or start looking for another job.

I've been thinking a lot about my sweet Koda lately and the fall I took two months ago.I'm not going to lie,I'm quite nervous to get on her again.I'm totally freaked out she is going to bolt and buck me off again and this time I will be hurt even worse..I've talked to the trainer were she will be going for training next month about it, and she told me its perfectly normal for me to feel this way.I've caught myself thinking that mabe I'm in over my head taking on a three Yr old,and maybe I should sell her and get an older already broke horse.it doesnt take long for me to talk myself out of selling her though.she's my girl ,and I couldn't imagine my life withought her now.

Well its late and I've gotten these things off of my chest so its time for me to end this here.Tomorrow is a new day and I'll ride with my girlfriends, and take care of my horses before I have to go to a job that is sucking the life and joy out of my soul. I really miss my Emsters tonight  :(

no title...just words

So today I got all the paperwork together for Em to register at her new school.Its been like pulling teeth with this school here to get them to release her records,but after bouncing from office to office on two separate trips today,I got it done.Big relief.now I just have to get them in the mail.
In my bouncing around the school today I decided to shoot a text to my lovely and dear friend who also happens to be the librarian there.Its been awhile since we have touched bases,but we are the type of friends that know that life happens, and we will be there for each other always and forever,no matter what.I love that,and I love her for letting me sit on a table in her library today and cry,and gush and babble,even though she had a meeting and didnt ask me to leave.I have always said everyone has a Phoebe in their lives,and well...she's mine.
That's pretty much it for tonight. I'm glad I started to write here again.Id forgotten how therapeutic  online journaling can be.

hmmmm

Its just me and the dogs and the birds here.its pretty quiet.I don't think I like it all that much.I miss my family.

tomorrow I'll go riding with the girls,and come back to just the critters.ems been smapchatting me tonight,but its not the same.I knew this was going to be hard,just didn't think just how hard it was going to be.

I has a sad

Tonight my beautiful, talented, goofy daughter is embarking on a new journey in her life.She is closing one door, and opening another, this time In Wa.She is going to live with my niece,who by the way is also my best friend,and do her senior year of highschool there.
My heart hurts,but I am so proud of her.I know she's going to do great there and she is going to be very happy.I just want her to be happy and I know she's not here.
She promised to call and text me all the time.If she doesn't well I'll just blow up her phone like any normal mom would do.😌
Ijust  hope she knows how much we love her, and I'm going to miss my partner in crime.I've kept it together pretty well all day so far so I should probably end this here.
I love you Em.💜

positive thoughts please.

Last week my GF, felt a tender and quite painful lump. a few days ago she had a mamogram and an ultrasound.Next week she goes in for a biopsy.Im scared for her... but I am sending out positive energy and lots and lots of prayers.

Right now Im home to do somehouse chores. Haha... right. Im on the computer. I went to wal*mart this morning and got some items we needed and also got most of the stuff for my Halloween costume.Im going to be a smurf since I ahve to work at the cafe that night.Im actually going to be The Breast Cancer Awarerness smurf. I bought a pink beanie today and a blue shirt and actually found some white pants!My friend Jeanie is going to make my tail for me.I think Im going to forgoe the traditional blue smurf tail since Im going to be the breast cancer smurf and go with a pink and white tail.I will be sure to have someone take pictures.

Im waiting for the vet. Got a couple horses with teeth issues, and one of the horses I take care of is dropping weight. Need to have her teeth checked as well... Oy....Think Ill go to the library for awhile... Its quiet there right?

too fast!

I absolutely cannot believe Its August already.....were did this year go?It seems like it was just last september and I was starting a new session with my new students!Too fast I tell yah... Too fast! Six weeks seems like forever!I cannot wait to get back, but I know the horses need a well deserved break.

Last weekend we had our anual fun day horse show at REINS.Its kind of bittersweet for us because it marks the end of the session but it also alows us to show how much our students have progressed throughout the year.Its sad for me because I know I wont be seeing my kids again for 6 weeks until we start again in September .

This year we decided to do something a little bit different with a few of our horses. Uusally we just use a templet that we have to decorate the horses with glitter and glue.This year we decided we were going to paint the horses with finger paints as well as use the glitter and glue.It was so much fun to see the girls get creative in decorating the horses!

Grand shows off her handprint

The two original Glitter girls decorating Ponchos hooves.

It was an amazing two days!Students acomplished goals, like riding completely independant for the first time ever and then getting a blue ribbon on top of it,bonds of friendships were strenghthened, and many, many wonderful memories were created.

Caught red handed!

a favorite

This is one of my fav pictures from my trip.....Me and my sis ..